This next post is not necessarily an update in regards to Rhett’s health, but I want to share some emotions I am experiencing as we prepare for our trip to Cincinnati.
We leave for Cincinnati in just a couple of weeks, and it seems as though this trip that I thought may never happen, has all of a sudden snuck up on us. While I am extremely excited for our trip, I am also a nervous wreck. The point of this trip is to get a full on examination of Rhett, and to hopefully confirm that we know all of his anatomy differences. While I feel confident that we know everything (I am doing my very best to stay positive), in the back of my mind I know there is a real possibility that we will learn new information. I am on this roller coaster of emotions anticipating this visit. I go from worry and fear, to having peace and faith, back to the worry and fear, and it continues. Of course I want to know everything there is to know about Rhett, but then again, ignorance is bliss.
Back to the point of this post. I am asking all of you who are following Rhett’s journey, all of our prayer warriors, to please join me in specific prayers. We have a very busy itinerary once we get to Cincinnati, and I would like for you to please pray for each evaluation and procedure that will be done. Rhett will have a swallow study, a CT scan, and three different scopes. He will undergo sedation or anesthesia twice during this visit, once for the CT scan and once for the three scopes. This will not be the first or last time he will be under anesthesia, but anesthesia always makes me nervous. Please pray that he handles the anesthesia well. Also, pray for my nerves as I will be the worrying mommy in the waiting room. He has had two swallow studies previously, and both of them showed the same results. I anticipate this swallow study being pretty much the same. Pray that he will cooperate and attempt to eat a little something so that the feeding specialists can give us further guidance on how we can help him to learn to eat orally. Finally, pray that the results of the scopes do not show any other abnormalities. Pray that we know all there is to know, and we can move forward with a surgical plan to repair his Choanal Atresia. But if we learn new information, pray that I will find peace with the findings. Pray that we will continue to keep all our faith in the Lord because he is sovereign and knows what lies ahead in our future. Lastly, pray for safe travels as this will be our longest car ride with Rhett.
No matter what we learn during this trip, we know that God has a plan for Rhett’s life and our life. Although his plan is nothing as I would have imagined it to be, we know that God’s plan is always better than our own.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”