Be Rhett

In a world where you can be anything, be kind. We’ve all heard it. This is an important motto to live by, but I also challenge you to be Rhett.

To be Rhett means to share your passions brightly. For Rhett, that’s his animals. He has no trouble showing you that he’s passionate about cows, lions, horses, or cats. To be Rhett means that you show off what you’re passionate about because you love it. Don’t ever be afraid to show your love.

To be Rhett means to love in a language that the other people understand. This can be without a verbal “I love you.” We have all heard that actions speak louder than words. Rhett is proof of that. He doesn’t need verbal words to express his love. He grabs your hand and leads you to a toy or game. His smile is love. His laugh is love. The curve of his cheeks and the sound that escapes his belly when he’s happy says I love you just as well as spoken words, if not more.

To be Rhett is to let your laugh be heard! Rhett can’t talk. He can’t speak words like you and I. But he can laugh and giggle. His laugh is infectious. His laugh (besides his kisses) are my favorite thing about him. I love being silly with Rhett, and doing something to make him smile and to make that deep giggle appear. It doesn’t take much, but running after him saying “RAWR” usually does the trick!

To be Rhett means to be resilient. Rhett’s faced many challenges during his life. Challenges with breathing, eating, walking, and hearing. But he doesn’t give up. He’s got a fighting spirit and a spark within him. We all have moments in life where we just feel like giving up. Some days are better than others, but we can be Rhett by digging deep down and finding that same fighting spirit to keep us going.

May you feel challenged today and the days ahead to be Rhett. Share your passions. Do a kind gesture for someone you love. Be silly and bring a smile to someone’s face. And when the days are tough, find that spark and let it fuel your fighting spirit just as Rhett does.

Written by Johnsie DeHaven


Kids are hard. I think that goes for both typical children, and for children who have special needs. There might be more hard things that we go through with Rhett, but sometimes Brooks can be tough too. Whenever you are on the outside looking in and think to yourself, “Having a child like Rhett must be hard,” I want you to remember these things.

Rhett is hard.

He works harder than anyone I know. The amount of hard work and energy he puts into everything he does shows through all of his accomplishments. He has to work harder than most to eat, breathe, walk, and communicate. He works hard day in and day out in all the therapies he has to do. Yes, Rhett is hard. He works hard, that is.

He loves hard. Rhett finds something he loves and then loves it with all his heart. He loves animals, books, and his family. He may not say “I love you” with words, but he says it with his actions. When he runs up for a hug, goes in for a kiss, or grabs you by the hand to lead you where he wants to go, he is showing you his love. Yes, Rhett is hard. He loves hard, that is.

He plays hard. From the moment his eyes open in the morning, to the moment his eyes close at bedtime, he is playing hard all day. He is playing, creating, and learning all day long. He plays just like any other child plays. Yes, Rhett is hard. He plays hard, that is.

I looked up the definition for the word hard, and it actually describes Rhett perfectly. Hard means not easily broken, and if you know anything about Rhett, you know this is true. He is so strong and resilient, and doesn’t let anything keep him down. Rhett is definitely not easily broken. I also found that hard means with a great deal of effort. This also describes Rhett because he puts forth his best effort in everything he does. Rhett is the definition of hard, just not in the way you might think.

Like I said before, being the parent of a child who has special needs can be hard. But parenting in general is hard. Let’s not forget that this journey isn’t just hard for the adults. This journey is hard on Rhett too. But let’s shift our focus to recognizing the effort it takes for Rhett to thrive and be successful in this world. This is a message to Rhett, but also to myself. Life is hard, but you can do hard things.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Our Hearing Loss Journey

In honor of Deaf Awareness Month, I wanted to share with you all in more detail about our journey with Rhett’s hearing loss. I know I have shared bits and pieces throughout previous blog posts, but I wanted to take the time to focus on hearing loss specifically, and share how that has affected Rhett and our family summed up into one post.

I am going to start from the very beginning. We found out about Rhett’s hearing loss very early on. A few days after birth, once Rhett had been transported from the hospital he was born at to the children’s hospital right down the road, Rhett had a CT scan to find out what was going on with his nasal passages. It was after the scan that we found out about Rhett’s inner ear abnormalities and how that could affect his hearing. This scan told us that Rhett had a malformed cochlea in his left ear and that he was missing his semi-circular canals in both ears. It was also after this scan that we were told it was highly suspected that Rhett had CHARGE Syndrome. This news hit me like a ton of bricks. There were so many unknowns and I just couldn’t wrap my head around my new sweet baby having to face so many challenges. Even though I knew hearing loss was very likely, I prayed that was not the case. I asked God to please let him have hearing. I could not imagine how in the world I was going to be able to parent a child with hearing loss. So I prayed very hard for 2 days that Rhett was able to hear.

The day that Rhett had surgery to have the trach placed, he also had an ABR hearing test done while under anesthesia. An ABR shows the brain’s response to sound which lets us know what his level of hearing is. Hearing is measured in ranges based on the pitch and volume of a sound. The ranges of hearing loss goes from mild-moderate, moderate-severe, and severe-profound. When you are in the severe-profound range you are considered deaf. The results of the ABR were that Rhett had mild-moderate loss in his right ear and severe-profound loss in his left. While this was not the results I had hoped for, I remember being so relieved. I think I knew deep down he was going to have some degree of hearing loss based on his anatomy, but he was not completely deaf. He had some useful hearing, and I was so thankful for that. The plan was to have him fitted for a hearing aid in his right ear, and begin therapy to help us learn how to most efficiently utilize the hearing that he had. We were told that a hearing aid on the left ear would not benefit him since his hearing loss was so severe, and that he also would not benefit from a Cochlear Implant in that ear because his anatomy was not typical. We were also told at that time that he did not have an auditory nerve in his left ear, and you can not do a Cochlear Implant without having an auditory nerve.

A month or so after being discharged from the NICU, Rhett had an appointment with audiology to check his hearing and to be fitted for his first hearing aid. We tried to do another ABR test while Rhett was napping in my arms, but it was difficult to keep him asleep with all of the things attached to his head. The information from this test, what information we could get, was pretty consistent with the other ABR which let our audiologist know where to start with programming his hearing aid. I remember during that visit I had to choose the color of the outer part of the aid and also the color ear molds. I tried to match the outer part as close as possible to his hair color and I chose clear ear molds. I remember thinking how Rhett had so many accessories already with the trach and g-tube that I didn’t want to bring attention to one more thing. I guess that was me being vain. I love that sweet little hearing aid and the sound it gave to Rhett, but I did regret the colors I chose on several occasions as little ones do not always leave their devices in their ears. When you have such a neutral color, it tends to blend in with everything. Talk about having a heart attack several times because the aid had been lost. I have even pulled over on the side of 52 several times to frantically search my car for a missing hearing aid, but these are stories for another time.

We monitored and tested his hearing pretty frequently the first few years. He had to go back to audiology every couple of months to have new ear molds made since his little ears grew and changed so quickly over the first few years. We have had some great audiologists, and we spent the first 3 years of his life in therapy with an early interventionist who specializes in children with hearing loss in the birth to 3 years age range. Our early intervention teacher, Preston, gave me so much guidance the first 3 years. She helped me focus on specific goals for Rhett’s language development, and also helped me learn so many signs. I will forever be grateful for her.

We were initially told that Rhett would not be a candidate for a Cochlear Implant in his left ear because an auditory nerve was not visible. Once we started traveling to Cincinnati for Rhett’s medical care, we learned that a CI for his left ear was an option. Rhett does have an auditory nerve to the left ear, but it is small. The doctors at Cincinnati are so familiar with children who have CHARGE that they were confident that Rhett would benefit from a CI in that ear, and he has. We are still unsure of what speech sounds he can actually hear with that ear, but we do know he is having some level of hearing and understanding through his Cochlear Implant.

We put off going forward with Rhett’s Cochlear Implant surgery because we were so focused on his airway for so long. Once we were at a point of his airway management that we knew we just needed to give him time to grow before his trach could be removed, we decided to then move forward with the left CI surgery. He was implanted in September of 2018, and activated in October of 2018. He has had sound to that ear for two years now, and in the last 6 months I’ve been confident that he is getting some level of hearing to that ear.

Right after surgery and activation, we spent our time and audiology appointments focused on maximizing the use of his new implant. During this time we sort of neglected his right ear. I started to notice Rhett responding less and less to people speaking, but I honestly thought he was being a toddler and ignoring us when he was focused on playing. Boy was I wrong and I still kick myself for not seeking more information about his right ear. During an appointment that we were checking on his right ear, his audiologist noticed him responding less during booth testing. I figured he was bored or uninterested in the task, but she decided Rhett needed another ABR test to get more information about that ear. Since Rhett was having scopes so frequently, we added that onto one of his routine scopes. Once he had the ABR, we learned that his hearing had regressed from mild-moderate to moderate-severe. I felt so awful because Rhett had been going about life without having the best access to sound, and I don’t know how long that had been going on. We had his hearing aid turned louder and I started paying closer attention to Rhett’s response to sound. Several months later when Rhett was under anesthesia for another scope, he had a repeat ABR done. This time his hearing had regressed even more to the severe-profound range. I cried. I was so heartbroken for him and so mad at myself for not noticing sooner. I was heartbroken because I knew how much he enjoyed songs and animal sounds and I feared he would miss out on that now that his hearing loss was to the point of deafness. He had his hearing aid turned up to the max, but often times having it louder does not help with hearing sound clearly. He wore his hearing aid at the max level for almost a year before finally having the second implant done. Once his hearing loss in that ear was at the severe-profound range, we knew he would most likely benefit from a Cochlear Implant on that ear as well. We began the long process of going through more testing and insurance in order for the surgery to be approved. We finally had surgery scheduled for the spring of this past year, but then COVID happened and postponed it. He was implanted and activated this past June, and he is already doing so well. He is responding quicker and quicker to speech, and I know it is helping so much with his understanding of things. He has also started to become more vocal although sign remains his preferred form of communication.

Rhett currently does Auditory Verbal Therapy twice a week to help him learn how to hear with his devices, speech therapy once a week to work on his communication skills, and twice a week he works with a teacher for the deaf and hard of hearing to learn new signs and vocabulary. He is a busy boy and a lot goes into helping him communicate as effectively as possible. Getting a Cochlear Implant was the best decision for him, but it is certainly not an easy fix to his hearing loss. Rhett is deaf with or without the Cochlear Implants, but they are a tool to help him best access language. We are using what is called a total communication approach to Rhett’s language development which uses a combination of spoken language, sign language, and pictures. Rhett is doing so well, but he still has a long road ahead. This journey has been hard, but it has taught me so much. My biggest take away from Rhett’s hearing loss journey is the never ending work he puts into understanding language. Let’s all learn a lesson from Rhett and work hard with whatever God gives us.

Food for Thought

As a parent, there are many times you say things you would have never imagined saying. Kids can definitely do some interesting things which make for some interesting phrases. There are phrases that you expect to say as a parent, but when you are a parent to a child who happens to have special needs, you wonder if you will ever say those things. There are many phrases that seem so normal for a parent to say, but I often wonder if I will ever get the chance to say them to Rhett.

Rhett is always ready to surprise me and do things to catch me off guard. That is part of the beauty of this journey. You do not take anything for granted. Just the other day we got to check another typical parenting phrase off our list. It took me by such a surprise that I had to take a moment to just laugh. Dale was feeding Rhett and Brooks a snack when I hear Dale say, “Rhett, stop taking your brother’s food!” That simple phrase sounds as if it would be so normal in a house with kids. Children always seem to want whatever their sibling has. Well let me tell you, I am not even sure if I could have imagined that phrase being said in our house even 6 months ago. One of the most difficult parts of our journey with Rhett has been his feeding difficulties. When he was a baby, he would silently aspirate small amounts of his milk and would get tired so quickly when trying to take a bottle. Because drinking a bottle was so uncomfortable for him, he began refusing the bottle around 5 months old. He basically did not eat anything by mouth for the first 2 years of life and was fed 100% of his nutrition through his g-tube. He was in feeding therapy multiple times a week to help him learn to not be afraid of food. Many other parents and therapists constantly had to remind me that the journey to learn how to eat was a marathon and not a sprint, and there are no truer words than that. There was much frustration, stress, and tears along the way, and it was all to get to the place where he is today. He has been eating the majority of his calories by mouth for over a year now, but has gone without any g-tube supplementation for about a month. We still use his tube for water, but we are hoping he can ditch the feeding tube once he learns how to better coordinate his drinking. There will be more therapy in his future, but he has already come such a long way. What makes me the most excited is that eating has finally become something he enjoys. I can now trust that when he says he’s all done eating it is because he is full and not because he is not enjoying the task. I am so excited that he is at the point that he likes food so much that he will take food that doesn’t even belong to him! For some this might not seem like a huge deal, but for our family it is the result of so much hard work, patience, and perseverance.

Sweet Blessings

I am working on sharing more. Especially the inch stones that we totally live for. Being a mom to a child with unique needs has taught me so much about how to not take anything for granted. I hope that I can help you also see the beauty in the small things. I hope I can help you to also not take things for granted. I hope I can show you the beauty of our life. I hope you can see God’s faithful hand in any circumstance.

I am writing tonight because, in the midst of my mind spiraling to a place it didn’t need to go, God brought me back to the here and now in the best way possible. I am writing tonight because I had the most amazing thing happen, and I do not want to ever for one second forget this moment. I am writing for a reminder to myself, but also to share with you, again, how amazing God is.

Tonight I am feeling extra tired, and I was dwelling in all that I need to do tomorrow. While I am so thankful and relieved from the news of Rhett’s scopes, I was worrying about how busy tomorrow is going to be with therapy, a well check appointment for Brooks, and an audiology mapping for Rhett. I was thinking about how Rhett starts school on Monday in person with a ton of virtual therapies mixed in thanks to COVID. I also start work Monday, and I was starting to feel in over my head. I was in a moment of stress over Rhett’s communication and how I can help him learn speech. Am I talking enough? Am I doing his therapy enough? To be honest, I have been having a hard time on the best approach to take with Rhett. We chose the cochlear implants because that is truly what is best for Rhett’s sensory development, but that doesn’t mean I need to try to force speech. All of this realization came to me in one simple sign. The sweetest phrase I have waited my entire motherhood journey to “hear” or see. For the first time, Rhett responded “I love you” back in sign language when I said and signed it to him.

I have never doubted that Rhett loves me. He constantly shows it in his own unique way. But seeing that sweet little sign just brought me back to reality and to what really matters. Rhett is amazing. I don’t need to try to change him to fit what the world thinks he needs to be. I need to change the world for him. At the end of the day, I want and need Rhett to communicate. Instead of putting my time and effort for a sound that honestly isn’t truly meaningful, I need to put that energy into enriching his sign vocabulary.

One sweet little sign was all I needed to remind me that Rhett is in charge. He takes the lead on his life, and I will follow that lead. Sign language is beautiful. If that is his choice for communication then I will do my best to become fluent in sign. Brooks is only a year old and is well on his way to being bilingual in ASL and English. I encourage you to learn some sign so that you have the ability to communicate with Rhett. I encourage you to help this world be a more accommodating place for those with disabilities.

Thank you, God, for the sweetest blessing tonight that brought me back to reality. Rhett, I will do my best to change the world for you.